SO... issues :\

WARNING: THIS IS ON THE DEEPER LEVEL. YOU MAY NOT BE COMFORTABLE WITH WHAT I SAY ABOUT MY FAMILY~ IF YOU READ... WELCOME TO MY LIFE:) I just need to vent...

While hanging out in my room I had my door adjacent to listen in to the conversation (iykyk). My father had a interview through vc for the c*lt.

FOR CONTEXT: 

The c*lt has various media outputs from theater performances, tv shows, films and radio stations. This is how they stay connected to people within, for each country there is a specific one to stay connected, obviously.

My father was asked to be interviewed, now, I don't really know the particular to reason to why, but I presume its cause my brother is the only guy in our group of girls, there's 5 of us in total (including him). 

In this interview he was asked about how his son's relationship with the rest of us was, his wants for him, my brother's roles in the church and his social life. Throughout this interview my father was answering naturally but there were particular times where he sounded like he was reading off a script; those times were during anything related to my brother's actual hobbies and interest.

While listening to my father I was pissed, him acting like he had been present in our lives is crazy, he was 'there' but he was also absent, I mean he didn't go out for milk, but he was continuously absent minded or on his phone, when he was 'present' he was destructive. Growing up I always feared him, he was there only to discipline us, I guess. I mention this because he was asked how raising us was... and that man had the audacity to say it was "difficult" I swear, men like him always like to take the credit!! He only has the title "Man of the house" BUT he's never done anything to actually earn that title. UGHH I HATE IT! It was only after I turned SEVENTEEN- IT TOOK HIM OVER SEVENTEEN GOD DAMN YEARS to finally be a father, even then he never took actual interest in what we did and who we hang out with UNLESS he wanted to keep tabs. When I was seventeen, I also came out.. but that's another story. 

As you can see my relationship to my parents is complicated, its not normal. I still do love them, they've raised me, given morals and values. And opportunities to be a great leader (having me raise my siblings). And also, standards where I know what I want and dislike~ which is also great to knowing hehe~ 

If you read this slay, besties! and soorry, I just need to rant about this because hearing that interview was horrendous.