Important question

 There's always a question in the back of my mind that lurks.. it's "If I were a dessert what would I be" 

For me it's easy I would be my favourite dessert!! A Strawberry cheesecake cookie. It mixes cookies and cheesecake a perfect combo. If made correctly, it's perfect with a sweet and tangy taste on the outside and a very creamy inside making an equal balance! It's obviously not for everyone, only those who fully learn the techniques and have an open heart can truly love this~ I say truly because one can simply enjoy it but those who know the process truly enjoys it most~

L, Focaccia. It takes a while to rise- patience is definitely an ingredient. But once complete, you may enjoy it in different ways. But it's also nice and simple. Great for many different occasions  

D, Macarons, whimsical, fun with all the assorted colours and flavours you can make~ But at times difficult to understand, which make them all the more intriguing. In the process of learning to making macarons, it's difficult in the way one may overthink the steps but rather it's not that difficult. But rather an enjoyable process.

M, Burnt Basque cheesecake. Mysterious (to me at least), elegant in the way it's eaten and also simple. Although, there's many ways to enjoy a Burnt Baque Cheesecake, the cheesecake is simple and direct, which is something I appreciate about this dessert. There are many flavour combos to try with the dessert to which it makes it mysterious but also intriguing.

Z, Mango crepe cake with a zesty sorbet (Very specific, I know but bear with me and ironically you don't like lemons haha) Crepes are simple, but put together the layers, the flavour is full and sweet. With a zesty sorbet, it's refreshing with brand new ideas for flavour profiles, it brings a fun new twist at any table!

P, Lemon meringue pie (once again please bear with me), A lemon meringue pie is simple but complex at the same time, there's many steps to making one, however the end result is highly enjoyable. As there's a bright, invigorating taste that keeps you around~ 

 These may be a tad inaccurate, but I guess debate with the wall, jk. I wanna know if y'all agree!

Signed Grandma <3 

Book recommendations

Here's my book recommendations that no one asked for hehehe<3

1. Before the Coffee gets Cold by Toshikazu Kawaguchi.

Though this is his debut novel, the novel(s) are written in such a beautiful way, you feel connected to the characters. The themes depicted in the novel were some things I personally resonated with, to the point I continued reading the series and still wait for next one. The magickal thing about this book is that it depicts human connection and emotional depth through time-traveling. However, the rules are fixed and important to listen to as there are magickal consequences, which is an interesting take on time-traveling. One thing about the series is that you may read the books in any order and it all makes sense still. Or you may choose one book, and you still won't be confused. I recommend all the books but if one were most important amongst them. I pick the original. 

Genre: Fiction, Fantasy and Magickal Realism. 

2. The Assassin's Blade by Sarah J Maas. 

Now, do I like Sarah J Maas. Simply put, no. But her Thorne of Glass series is definitely up there on my list. Her writing is very imaginative and enticing. Although, the book I recommend is NOT the book you read first of the series, it is definitely one of my favourites (there's a lot of debate which order of the books should be read in). It's definitely tragic but the YEARNING ughhh I love a good book with YEARNING~ This series follows an Assassin in fae world full of magick overrun by demons and other black magic, over the course of the books the lore becomes deeper and the characters become more interesting as they unravel hidden magick amongst themselves, books and hidden kingdoms. 

Genre: Romance, Action/Adventure and Fantasy

3. This Book Won't Burn by Samira Ahmed.

It's a fantastic read, the book takes on topics like censorship, racism, relationships and social justice. The book follows a teen who loves books and has a special connection with book but had to move to a small town due to her parent's divorce. During the move, she finds herself having to advocate for herself and many others' education and their right to read any book. This book is a must read if you love character-driven plots with a lot of emotional depth. 

Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary Fiction and Suspense.

4. The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins            

The DRAMA, THE PLOT TWIST! Ughh this book is soo good, I couldn't get this book out of my head, after I read it, for a while every book I read after this didn't hit. This book takes on how it is to be part of the "A list" in Hollywood as the main character makes morally compromised decisions to continue her path in the luxurious lifestyle. The books also feature themes like: Love, Identify and historical contexts that massively impacted certain communities in America. You must read before the film comes out next year!!

Genre: Contemporary Fiction, Literary Fiction, Romance and Drama  

Now, for number 5... I couldn't pick just one and I didn't want to continue writing so I'm just gonna list a couple here: 

- Loveless by Alice Osman 

-Radio Silence by Alice Osman 

- All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven 

- Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson

- Today, Tonight, Tomorrow by Rachel Lynn Solomon 

- The Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman

- Love Her Wild by Atticus 

- Girl in Pieces by Kathleen Glasgow

- Dear Self, by Patience Tamarra

Search 'em up

I promise you won't be disappointed.

If you read at least one of these books, I shall try one of your hobbies or whatever you want me to try~

Signed Grandma <3

In the broom closet

Magick flurries.

GUESS WHATTT!!

 Guess who consumed an energy drink.. now cannot sleep! ME, I'm the idiot~ but whateves.

Sleeping is overrated. I wanted to make a blog, right now. At this moment.... becausee....ITS THE 5TH JULY. Now, you could be thinking to yourself, why would that matter? It matters BECAUSE this was the night exactly 1 month ago, we stayed up until 7:30 in morning at uni! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! Happy one-month y'all! 

Our first hangout is definitely one to remember, because I don't know about y'all, but I don't stay up late with a new group of people. HECK, I usually don't stay up late with any of my friend groups apart from this one apparently. (They're mainly introverts with night routines they follow strictly) 

This was the main reason; I was so excited to make menus and to do the planning hehe. Because after 3 weeks of not fully being together, we're all still in contact! Which is a good sign for longevity for this group! it wasn't the proximity or the regular hangouts we did but there's an actual something that keeps us together~ I dunno whatt but there is something!

Its nearly 4.. I'm still not sleepy!!! ughhh stupid energy drink!! 

OH

MY 

GAWDD

IM GONNA FINALLY SEE MY SWEET ZHYRRA!! 

Actually, I wanna talk about me and her for a bit, because it's come to my attention that there was a couple of you that thought me and her have known each other for a long time! which I loveeee! But yes, to clarify, we met through our Legal workshop, it was the second one for the sem and I had nowhere to sit, so I sat on the same table as her~ Then after a couple workshops we trauma bonded on the cult!! yay! and that's how me and twin met! I unfortunately don't know the dates for our occurrence ughh soo unfortunate. 

OOoo to carry on the origin story heheh (from my perspective obvi)

May 8th, I remember wanting to hangout and Miss darling girl had suggested studying at the library. Now did we actually do this? uh we ended up in the pa, we DID complete things here and there, I completed my readings for management which were lengthy, but we also talked about which movies we'd be interested in watching with... DRUMROLL PLEASE.... L! Miss sweetie pie showed up with a new character to unlock! She stood in front of me with the longest wavy hair I've ever seen and a Pikachu bag on her back, which naturally piqued my interest, soo obviously I had to befriend her! It was that day The Amazing Digital Circus plans occurred! All because of one's love for going to the movies and the other two's love for the actual show~ 

May 25th, it was one of those days I baked for Z*** but it was one of those rare days he wasn't there to receive them. I had baked crinkles and stayed up baking them (which I don't mind doing for anyone) but majority of the day I was luging around a TON of crinkles. So I messaged Miss Byler to see if she wanted some. Skip to actually meeting up with her, she bought this really tall, shy boy with fun socks to the meeting. Turns out he likes crinkless!! and makes balloon animals, from that day I knew he was someone to keep around! I actually said it on our first meeting, he never had a choice but to stick around me. OOP. 

June 5th.. The last day of Z's and D's performance for theatre andddd~ when I got to meet this blonde boy with a fun button up and interesting aura AND OF COURSE, I also got to meet this brunette with the prettiest hair and a full black outfit with the exception of a brown scarf. I first met the blond... at first, I wasn't too sure about him then he showed his fun personality and pulled out this 2007 camera to shoot our angry confession (that we didn't even end up doing btw). Then, I met the brunette. The first thing I noticed was his quiet demeanour, I say quiet because he didn't seem shy (I could be wrong). It wasn't 'til we played those many rounds of mafia he piqued my interest, because let's be honest here... pretty people don't have personalities, but this one does! and the rest is history!!

I don't know why but that took wayy too long to write!! It's now 4:26..... I must sleep now, for at least a little whilee

That is all 

Thank you

See you later 

Good Morning

Good Night 

Goodmornight

and Hello!

Signed grandma<3

      

Things that I love that make life a little more bearable

 I've realized we haven't done a lot of blogs that correlate to 'love' except for a couple appreciation posts. And I wanna go into the new sem with a positive energy and perspective! I actually realized how negative I perceive things and myself, which needs to change so instead of 10 Things I hate (about you), it's 10 Things I love!! This won't be in any particular order, 

1. Dancing, though I have no skill for it and the fact I get shy when people ask me if I want to join sometimes scares me. I love the energy and the movements. I will always be dancing when one of my songs come on, it's one of the few joys I've found, even shaking and jumping up and down with the music does it for me. I actually have a morning ritual to dance off any bad energy, I encourage y'all to do the samee!

2. A clear, sunny morning during winter. Now, I absolutely hate the winter, because it doesn't make sense why any season has to get that cold. But there's this feeling I get when the sun beams through the cold and the temperature reaches the perfect temperature, not too warm and too cold but still a little crispy, I love it! Mornings like that make winter a little more bearable~ Just imagine a coffee- for those who don't drink coffee, imagine a hot chocolate and for L... imagine you liked hot drinks, imagine the steam coming out, while you sit outside enjoying the sun. AH the perfect moment with a book ofc!

3.  As we all know, I love baking! I'm actually surprised I didn't put this first, I'm pretty sure I've talked about the feeling and the process I love about baking, so I'll keep it short. Baking is an external output for my emotions. Yay!

4. Books and films, when nothing too bad happens! Ok, this could be why I'm very delusional, but I absolutely love it when the plot is good and comforting. Like mamma mia, the music is good, the plot is good, typical romance plot, I like it, it's simple and that's all I need. Too many bad things happen in the real world to want to watch something that stresses you out for a comfort movie. 

5. The crunch of leaves, I just love it when you step on the crunchiest leaves and they make the loudest sound! AHH I love the asmr of it all!

6. Conversations with no end. I loveee talking, it literally could be about anything, and I'll enjoy either way~ sometimes I don't even gotta know about the thing you're talking about, I'll sit and listen and put some input in from time to time. I love it when people talk passionately about their interests, it'll pique my interest and then I'll try whatever you talked passionately about~ 

7. Dressing up with no occasion, I don't know if y'all realized but I love dressing up and seeing what you guys' wear, it's not ill intentioned, I just love picking outfits~ There are days I'll even pick a theme or subtlety dress up as a character, like Velma, Shrek, minion or most recently a librarian. I get so much excitement just thinking about what to wear, it's something I always look forward to~

8. A good lengthy walk, as much as I dislike exercising, I love a good walk, being able to look around and take in the things you may miss when driving. There's something so nice to just notice. To notice the bumps on the street, the messy graffiti, stickers and other perfect imperfections. Which is why I don't do running, if you see me running, it's not me, that's a fake! either that or someone threatened me to never bake again. 

9. Aimlessly creating things, without a second thought or doubt, just creating a bunch of things is something love doing, though I don't create things often anymore. But I still do love just creating things with no plan and being happy with what I got, there's something poetic about just having done all the work and now you'll get wear/look at all the effort you put in it~

10. (I will not disclose until we surpass our 3-month anniversary)

Anywhooo, life is actually worth living when you notice the small things to make it 'perfect'. There we go this could be my version of The Map of Tiny Perfect Things!

SIDEQUESTS

Everyone asks about goals and aspirations buttt I WANNA know about everyone's side quests, what do you do to make it more whimsical and fun. I don't wanna be just working my repetitive 9-5 in the future thats borringgggg! I guess as a group we have a list that can span us a lifetime that we can do together but I wanna know what you as an individual wanna do, when life gives us a break!

I'll start 

Real side quest I want to complete: 

1. Go to a Jazz bar with a fake back story and just go with the whole story for the rest of the night. 

2. Ask strangers for life advice! 

3. Adopt a pet outside the 'normal' ones. I'm thinking monkey rn, but I dunno tho

4. Complete reading all the books on my shelf and TBR! - I might die before this is actually done. 

5. Dance in the heavy rain~

6. Do an angry love confession in the rain 

7. Bake for charity 

8. Buy a random bus/train/plane ticket to somewhere and just explore the heck out that place 

9. Witness something extraordinary - I don't know what I actually mean yet, But I'll know once it happens

10.  Find all the best recipes with the best stories that made them come about!

I also want to start a scrapbook, where I paste all the amazing adventures I/we go on, I think it'll be pretty neat to pass it on to my kids (if I were to ever have some). 

I WANT Y'ALL TO SHARE SHAREEE~ If you don't have any.. sit with the question and think of someee! 

Also, I've been such a chud today, I haven't done crap, I wanted to take a walk and pick up some photos, but laziness has been too powerful to move any of my legs, so instead I'm typing away, looking for recipes, scrolling reels (on my very mini screen) and writing these short blogs. My mum was right it was the darn phones. I'm also in a very chatty mood; I've been talking to myself a lot! I caught myself saying (out loud) "I wanna do that" which led to this blog. Anywayss, I think it's about time I start being productive..

Image Cleansing

 SOOOOOO my grandma image has been recently undone. So, I'm here to clarify, I PROMISE I'M STILL INNOCENT NO MATTER WHAT Y'ALL THINK I read. I only read dark romance novels from time to time. If you look on my bookshelf there is a variation of genres...And nooo dark romance, because the FEW I do have are hidden hehe~

To add more clarityyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ 

The dark romances have respectable boundaries, like:

1. 

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3. 

If you can't see the reasons, the problem is you. 

Also, if you need recommendations, I am here, I shall share the best tricks to finding the best ones~

Thank you for listening to my TED talk

No twists

 DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT ABOUT ANYONE IN THE GROUP, I just saw a post, and it sparked something! It said "POV: you're the convenience friend"

Friends are not there just for 'convenience'! I genuinely cannot fathom the fact why people will intentionally ignore their friends because they got into a relationship! Like shit, I was there giving you advice for that goddamn relationship, now you're gonna disappear on me. It's safe to say I've had my fair share in experiences like this, like in a relationship whether platonic or romantic. EFFORT MATTERS! Making the effort to go places or to listen and converse, there needs to be effort for equal support from both parties! I had this friend, who didn't hit me up 'til they were going through a rough patch and once it was good again, the supposed friend disappeared. 

I suppose I feel so strongly about this cause...

Okay, before I tell you I gotta make it clear, I don't believe in wasted time, I believe the universe has a plan in whatever it may be. So, the time spent whether negative or positive, it added to our storylines in one way or another~ 

BUT I absolutely hate it when someone takes advantage of MY free time because whatever they had going on ended. There's a clear distinction between intentionally clearing up your schedule for someone and working them in. Now, I gotta make this clear I understand people have lives and other plots to live and whatever. But there's a saying that floats around a lot, that correlates its: "If he wanted to, he would" Okay, I don't expect constant hangouts or communication, I can live without you for a while (IF the intention is good) But, if I don't hear from you after numerous failed attempts from trying, just so you know, I've mentally deleted myself from the relationship, you've been demoted. bye. 

But effort can come in different shapes and forms, like the amount of time we spend together, treating each other out to things, giving a simple note to show you're thinking of them, helping out in any form or etc! For me, a lot of people know me as the "therapist" friend, call me at 3 AM and I'll pick up and be there, that's how I like to show up for people, if you don't do the same thing or something similar, I'll read it as you don't appreciate me enough. And I repeat, I understand If you can't do the same, just be there in any form.

Moving on, some people need to stop looking for "love" so eagerly, they become so blind sighted that they tend to forget about platonic relationships, I mean it doesn't help that most of the media shown today romanticizes romantic love heavily, any depiction of platonic love is usually girl-girl/boy-boy and relationships with the opposite-sex is heavily heteronormative. RAUUHHH REMOVE YOUR TRADITIONAL VALUES OUTTA HERE! Growing up with my two besties (who are guys, I've known them for 12+ years now) I constantly heard "OOOoo who do you like?" "Are you dating?" if there was just the two of us. I remember it being so confusing to navigate it when I was little. I genuinely started to wonder "do I like them both?" mind you I was 8 to 9 and puberty HIT! I wasn't having a blast, it was so confusing, those questions followed us all the way through high school up until we split and found different groups. Still love 'em but we needed distance. Hate heteronormativity.

Anyways, back to the topic at hand. If I see no effort, I will give up. It's easy and simple, you cannot take what you cannot give. I ain't gonna be no "convenience" friend. 

Anyways ciao 

Lesson learnt

 Guess whose stress eating all the sweets around her.... ME! I'm probably gonna break out so bad I won't recover for a month, AHHH!
It was a fantastic day, it was chill, the sun was out and the wind wasn't cold, it was perfect! Then it wasn't.. On my way to pick up some photos from warehouse stationery, I was scrolling up the group chat to see what I missed (absolutely nothing) then suddenly my hands gave up(?) I don't really know what happened, but I dropped my phone; the bottom of the main screen completely black and the top half glitching in and out! Once it started look normal-ish, there was a BIG FAT BLACK LINE ACROSS MY SCREEN, and then my phone started to look like it was being hacked - opening up random apps and then closing it again and then pressing random buttons, it messaged something to my mum? I can't see what it said but she replied saying "miss you" Uh it was a good message then? The main screen is fully uncontrollable ughhh~ I haven't even finished paying for this phoneeee! I have like 7-8 months left! I mean I could exchange it, but my clumsy hands could mess that one up too... 

I'm taking this as a sign to 1. never walk while messaging 2. It's time to fully detox, I've noticed my scrolling is getting out of hand (apparently, the universe has noticed it too) 3. dumby-fy my phone, meaning time to get one of those brick phones or those flips (I'm gonna bedazzle the heck of out of it, IF I go with that route) 

Lesson has been learnt universe!! no need to destroy another thing! please<3 

Pov: me and my future flip phone<3